blabbersss.

havn been studying since after prelims. okay, maybe a lil. but it's wayyyyyy too little to be considered i studied. guilty. sigh. it's not exactly a good idea to have prelims cos it makes one feels like exams are over but they are not.

and i have been feeling tired easily when i'd obviously rested enough, having weird weirddd dreamsss every night, having a horrible headache which makes me dont feel like doing anything for de past 2days. and it looks like it's here to stay w me today. i guess i have no choice but to pop de pills if not it's gonna be a wasted trip to de woods like tuesday.

sometimes i wonder.. if i didnt appear, maybe it wouldnt have been such a big round isnt it? but den again.. things do happen for a reason i supposed.

why didnt i know how to plan for de future earlier in my life? sigh. i kinda miss school days. school.. meaning you wear uniforms not homeclothes. you report to school at a specific time not anytime you like. you do your tutorials faithfully because your teachers will chase you for them and not dont do cos u're lazy since no one will be there to bite your ass anyway.

used to buy lots of clothes online. then it became bags. now.. it's beauty products!! gosh. and i'm picking up novels again. those in my shelves, i havn finish all of them. yet i spend money on others, spend time on them. now you know why i didnt study. why suddenly.. i start to spend so much again? maybe.. it's my source of entertainment. reading makes me forget abt i-still-have-a-lot-more-to-study and live in de novel's world. and spreessss.. de feeling of looking thru them online, reading abt them, deciding which to get, waiting for them to arrive at your door.. excites me. (:

i know.. i know.. i'll reduce. i'll stop.

i guess.. it's de weekdays daily dosage of 9pm show, weekends dosage of 7pm show and sundays dosage on 56.. dat's keeping me sane w/o having to spend money.