arghs.

it's not easy to hafta pretend everything's okay.. be it relationships, studies, plans et cetera. then my parents hafta nag at me regarding de issue.

de issue dat i tried my very best not to think abt cos i dun want my emotions/moods/feelings to be manipulated by it. pls la i really dont want to get involved again. dont want to allow my heart to get a chance to be broken once again, regardless by who.

and my studies.. i think it's either i'm abnormally calm or my slow reaction is still taking place. no matter which is de case, there's nth i can do except work harder.

why cant you guys leave me aloneee?! why cant everyone just take things as they are? here i am, trying very hard to tell myself dat i am very happy and dat everything is okay, ignoring everything else. and den you guys came stepping on me w/o even trying a single bit to understand how i feel.

it's not dat i dont know both papa and mama are concerned. i know you both love me. all de more it drives me to de verge of breaking down.

at this point of time, i really HATE guys!!! seriously. hate myself even more. why am i still living and fighting oxygen w others? it's such a waste on me.

just rambling and i know this is nth compared to de other worse cases bleah

被爱未必是辛福的。就让爱情暂时从我的世界里消失吧！