a quick one..

before i head out again.

i got up de moment my alarm went off this morning. didnt 赖床 at all! (:

then i didnt sleep on de bus to work when usually, de moment i got a seat.. i'll just drift off to lalaland in split seconds.

i could feel my abs/tummy/stomach aching. dat's de part i always didnt stretch enough.

and then i broke my specs at de clinic! i didnt wear it out today. i simply forgot abt it and my organiser when i left on friday. told you i can forget anything hahaha.. now i really need a new specs. wad a bad timing.

sigh. pls dun ask me how i broke it cos de way i broke it.. it's v dumb. dumbo me. why lidat!!!!!!! it could be prevented but... arghs. so angry w myself.

knocked off and i decided to have lunch at tourism board when i walked past.

i headed over to fer's place after.

de poor boy fractured his ankle. :(

i wanted to surprise him. and i managed to go pass de security and even de entry to de lift!! was so happy i managed to get upstairs smoothly!

called him, called his home, no answer.

at this point of time, i really could not hold on any longer. my stomach's hurting like crazy.

so i rushed down to de public loo. thanks goodness it was a condo. HAHAHA

then i sat at de void deck. it was breezy. felt good. (:

waited and waited.

called and called.

i can call his parents but decided against that. why do i hafta go thru a 3rd party to reach my bf?!

so again, i waited and waited.

i decided to do something. shall not say it out as yet. hahaha

finally de boy called back!!

he was at jurong east.. seeing de doctor. and he hafta go down to sgh. BOOO!!

my surprise went down de drain.

i didnt tell him i'm at his void deck.

probably cos i dun have much time to spare.. need to go and meet my ex-colleagues. cant afford to give it a miss when they postponed de gathering for me last week.

yes you will be reading this entry.. but by den it doesnt matter anymore cos it's long over.

when i know dat i couldnt see him, suddenly i really want to go and find him. pouts. humans.

de moment i hung up, droplets of water rolled down my cheeks. i dont know wad they are for.

why is it you can make me so vulnerable so weak? booo!! i dun like dat. i had been crying and crying and crying for no good reason. u're like de headquarter of all my emotions.

why!!!!!!!!!! i dun like de crybaby me. dun like de weak sillyseeks. sillyseeks is supposed to be strong and independent.

i shall be and will be.

and den i'm home typing this entry.

now, i need to run!