i am so tired..

maybe cos i'm tired physically.. dat's why i'm feeling tired mentally too.

i want someone who loves me.. loves me thru actions, not just words.. loves me wholeheartedly... loves me for who i am.. even when i'm fat, old and evil. someone who listens to me.. someone who does wad he says.. someone whom i can talk with non-stop.. someone who supports me.. someone who wun leave me aside and do his own stuff.. someone who treasures me more than his games and bettings.. someone who's willing to do anything just to make me smile.. someone who treats me like a princess all de way and not only during de so-called honeymoon period.. even when i totally dun deserve it.. even when i'm nasty towards him.

are you dat someone?

i know i dun need all these... i am just greedy. i was sad when i see you today. and i bet you dun even know i teared.. i didnt want to.. but it hurts.. so much so dat tears kept falling.

i'm losing faith in love.. losing hope. it really hurts.. and it's unpredictable. it's ridiculous. de vicious cycle.. it's wearing me out...

maybe i shld find myself a girlfriend and i shall be de boyfriend.